I passed...

I passed the driving test today!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am free to run over 3 years old now :D

I made a BIG decision today...

lenovo_thinkpad_w_series.jpg


DUN DUN DUN...

I just ordered Lenovo Thinkpad W500....for a total of $2165 bucks...(original price was 2700...with all the upgrades and tax)

I had spent DAYS trying to decide on a laptop....

Mac: you know...I REALLY REALLY REALLY wanted a mac before....it just looks SO NICE! I tried HARD finding different alternatives to use windows on Mac...Parallels and Bootcamp shit....but then I read that Wacom tablet doesnt recognize the pen pressure on those softwares...so I just gave up.....too much headache to use a stupid mac....

VAIO: Vaio is nice....pretty looks....AND it runs windows.....but then I saw multiple reviews saying that SONY's laptops have bad quality....you are basically paying a high price for its brand......>___> F no....screw Vaio....

Fujitsu: yeah I wanted to buy the Fujitsu Tablet T5010 before...I even convinced my mom....but the more research I did on that model....then more I question if it is really worth it...apparently....if I want to upgrade this model to a satisfiable state....the price would add up to 2400 dollars...which is TOO much for a laptop that is described as "okay for a laptop...mainly a tablet..." especially when I have a tablet already......plus it is heavy and looks cheap.....=___=....I surrendered...

Lenovo Thinkpad: the only complaint I have with this laptop is...its....looks.....you have to admit this shit is incredibly ugly......but it is durable...great quality....literally the BEST laptop all around....AND it is a BUSINESS laptop....it LOOKS PROFESSIONAL....I heard the keyboard is awesome too....even Gtown recommends it...><....if I really hate the cover....I might just get a laptop skin or something...lol....I am happy with its screen size (15.4'')...and other configuration is great too :D

Intel Core 2 Duo processor T9600 (2.8 GHz 1066 MHz 6MBL2)
Windows Vista Business 64
512 MB VRM
4GB memory
Trackpoint and Touchpad with Fingerprint Reader
160 GB hard disk drive 7200rpm
bluetooth pan
a battery life of 9 freaking hours...:D :D
resolution: 1920x1200
DVD Recordable 8x Max Dual Layer, Ultrabay Slim
Intel WiMAX/WiFi Link with My WiFi tech.

so I am finally done with the laptop business......I am a little mad that it will ship on 7/30 which means I will not get to use it until I come back from my vacation.....but overall....I feel relieved!!! :D

AHA!!...FINALLY!

I have a confession to make...

I just got on a pron site...and enjoyed it....

Here is the link...DO NOT LOOK AT IT IF YOU ARE UNDER 18!!! D :<

Pron Site

I am in despair....

WHERE IN THE WORLD ARE THE -GOOD- YAOI ANIME/MANGA?!!!

I spent the WHOLE day today searching for good yaoi animu/mango....but all I found is CORNY crap/lame Pron....

I watched the most disturbing shit today....so disturbing that I am too ashamed to update my MAL....|||||.....probably the only thing left for me to watch in that category is Boku no Pico....which I will not watch because Pico does not resemble a guy at all...- -.....

DUDE....yaoi is probably the worst genre other than harem in the animu market nowadays....HORRIBLE animation that makes me want to wash my eyes afterward....plot that is so lame and predictable-->you know when the seme is going to rape the uke.....-->to a point I dont know whether to facepalm throughout the entire show or to hide myself in a hole out of shame because I am still watching it regardless....the BGM is just hilarious....the WTF plot contributed to it tho...lol.....the seiyuu....dude I seriously feel sorry for these guys....I mean they probably sold their souls doing those voice-acting but they are just SO HORRIBLY AWKWARD in the yaoi animus.....

Yaoi mango is generally better than Yaoi animu....mainly because the art is pretty good most of the time.....and there are some decent stories out there.....Out of all the crap I've read today.....I liked "Me de Shireru Yoru no Junjou"....but the uke is pissing me off......am I the only one thinking they should put more emphasis on the homophobic aspect of men?.....I mean what are the chances that a random guy confessed to another guy and he JUST HAPPENS to be gay too....speaking of that.....I read a short story called "Peggy" that is drawn by a Chinese American.....the ending made me feel really shitty and sad.....it is a REAL good story that is actually realistic and reflect the problem of virtual relationship in the modern world (I am not stretching here).......very nicely-drawn too....it is not yaoi or BL.....just one-sided.....I wish it is made into a real series.....I really want to know want happened to that poor guy....

Seriously tho....today I am even more convinced that if you want to read/watch some GOOD yaoi....just play the games.....well...maybe not stuff like Absolute Obedience.....but....u know...Lamento's kind of games :D....even Kichiku Megane for God's sake.....is better than...say....Maiden Rose......the voice-acting is always superb....and CGs are pretty :D....most importantly...THE PLOT!!!!....*SHIT MY DAD JUST KNOCKED ON THE DOOR...GOTTA GO TO BED NOW*

Before I go....

One good news: I GOT MY VISA FOR JAPAN TODAY!!!WOOT!!!><

more headaches plz...

I just want to pull my hair out right now......

Because of my failure to transfer out of the business school....now I HAVE TO get a PC....

I wanted to get a Mac...really bad.....BEFORE.....

HOWEVER...when I found out that you cant use SAI on Mac (dont tell me boot camp/parallels/virtual PC....it is too much hassle and just PLAIN STUPID to install windows on Mac)...and the mac ver. of microsoft sucks butt on there...(I have to get the microsoft for my school...) I told myself...SCREW mac....I am going to get a VAIO....

but VAIO....I know at least two ppl who own a white VAIO...which seems to be the same model I want to get.....so I am having second thought....I dont want to be a copycat...

my school told me to buy a lenovo thinkpad...but that shit is the UGLIEST thing I've ever seen in my life...

lenovo-thinkpad-x200t-tablet-pc.jpg

TADA!!!!!....and this is the ONLY style they have.....an ugly black box....-    -.....
I think my very first laptop has those scroll ball thing instead of a touchpad....it is a pain in the butt....very hard to control....
the screen is only 12''....TOO small....AND it doesnt have an optical drive...WTF....

HOWEVER....I noticed this model's screen is actually....A FREAKING TABLET!!!!!....I swear to god I saw my art teacher using one of those before!!!!!THAT feature just made this ugly thing SO MUCH COOLER!!!....I can actually draw on the screen now ; A ; !!!!

So....I tried to look for more tablet laptops * U *

I have done 4 hours of extensive research on these laptops....and I think I have found the perfect laptop for me :D

fujitsu-lifebook-t5010-centrino-2-tablet-pc.jpg

A Fujitsu T5010 Tablet Laptop with optical drive + Windows Vista Business Edition :D
It looks better than the Lenovo too! And the screen is 13.3''....same size as a Mac Book.....which is acceptable.....I would prefer a 15'' one but I dont think it is available........>___>

At least....unlike Mac/Vaio/Thinkpad....I dont think I will find anyone with that laptop anywhere in the school....

>___> It is very expensive tho...2,000 bucks.....even more expensive than a mac of the same size.....I heard those tablet DESKTOP costs a fortune too!....

AHH...I am done researching....I will talk with my dad tmrw about this....hopefully everything will work out fine = w =

:D I love Greek Mythology....

SO MANY HOMOS!!!!!!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mythology_of_same-sex_love

I am having fun reading stories on there...><....

There are too many so I will resume tmrw....~

Have been a good kid since yesterday....

After I wrote the previous journal entry yesterday....I turned off the computer and started reading in my bedroom.....I realized I really like being in a closed-space...maybe I should find a cave to live in later.....

Then parents started yelling at me....I felt guilty and cried......= =....

I spent the rest of the day in my room....reflecting....played some pokemon because I missed it....but got mad at it when I cant catch the legendary pokemon....I read...slept....but had a bad headache+stomachache...I didn't eat anything until dinner because I wanted punish myself...

Then I went driving-practice with my dad....

At dinner...I apologized....I volunteered to wash the dishes.....and took a walk with my parents afterward....when we got home....I watched Chinese drama with them........

I went to bed feeling somewhat relieved...

Today....I took my second driving lesson....everything went pretty well....I even got on the freeway......yay me.....I lived....

Then I got home and drove my parents to banks....I also went to Barnes and Nobles and spent every last cent of the gift card Cristy gave me.....I bought four books......The Secret Scripture (summer reading required by Gtown), The Brothers karamazov, The Scarlet Letter, and The Picture of Dorian Gray....They dont have The Left Hand of Darkness anymore.....>___> is that a fantasy book?.....anyways...those plus Lovely Bones and The Road which I never finished....looks like I will have 6 books to read this summer....(dammit that seems impossible...judging from my reading speed)

I took a long nap and just woke up now.....I am gonna eat now......byes~

GG...Amber...GG....

Wow....I have not been this depressed for a long time.

Thanx for your help, Unko and Junko. You guys really helped me a lot by revising my shitty essay!

But all of your hard work has gone to waste.

I just called Gtown's admission office to ask about the official letter thing.....and guess what they told me?...."unfortunately, SFS (the major I was trying to transfer into) is full already. We no longer accept any transfers. The deadline was by the end of April."

WOAHHHHH....WOAHHHH!!!!!!......NO ONE EVER TOLD ME THE DEADLINE WAS BY THE END OF APRIL.....WTF......I remember when I talked to the guy at Reception...he told me I just need to turn it in before school starts.......and I also e-mailed him about the deadline thing but he never returned the e-mail.....so I assumed what he said before was correct......

FUCKING GREATT!!!!!!!!.....now I feel like a retard....working on TWO essays for god knows how long........

At the moment...my parents are furious with me......my dad thinks the major I am in right now is shitty.....and he is all "you should have gone to NYU...".....

If there was a hole in my room I would crawl in there and never come out again....

Yeah.....definitely not going to AX this year.....I dont want to go see the movie on Thursday either.....I even dont want to go to Japan and China anymore because I feel so ashamed of myself......

I have lost all of my incentives to have fun....I want to go to school.....

Wow....this is going to be the worst summer yet.....this is great.

WOW....this is quiet...interesting....

Since Chinko is bugging about the "derriere" business again...I looked up the word and found a million synonyms for "the fleshy part of the human body that you sit on"

buttocks, nates, arse, butt, backside, bum, buns, can, fundament, hindquarters, hind end, keister, posterior, prat, rear, rear end, rump, stern, seat, tail, tail end, tooshie, tush, bottom, behind, fanny, ass

seems like....this is a REALLY commonly used word....LMAO.....

P.S. "stern" means ass too?!!!...holy shit thank goodness....I ALMOST went to NYU ASS school of business.....

WOARRR!!~~~~

Q__Q Why is Godfather's theme song SO GOOD?!

I am in tears...T____T.....

elegant, grand, poignant and wistful......what a beautiful piece of music....

I can't stop listening.....


D: SO TIRED

hey guys....I am BACK....

I was not on the computer for 2 days and I feel liek I have been gone for AGES....

so yeah....Friday-Sunday...art classes for 18 hours....:D!!..all I did was figure drawings/paintings...it seems I got a lot better at it after three days of intense training under 4 different teachers...I am SO GRATEFUL that I FINALLY got a FEMALE model this time....:D I LOVE her BODY!!!<333....(....wow I sound really perverted here...) she is really fun to draw.....= w =

all I can say is...dammit all....why am I here NOW?.....>____> should have majored in art should have majored in art should have majored in art....

and I still havent revised my ass-a yet.....I think revising is so much harder than actually writing it.....

what else what else....oh YEAH....I watched the Great Gatsby on Friday and the Godfather on Saturday....

man I love old movies....I dunno...movies nowadays seem to focus TOO much on the artsy side....I mean it is cool to make the movies all pretty and stuff...but plot is always the MOST important part....maybe this is the reason I am not too fond of Slumdog Millionaire...~

the Great Gatsby....Robert Redford IS Jay Gatsby....; A ; so perfect....Robert Redford is also my mom's on-screen crush....lol.....I heard he turned really ugly now...ughh....I dont think I want to see his face now.....(dammit...when I searched for his pics...I saw what he looks like now....>___>....||||)

WOW....WOAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lookit what I found on Wiki...

"American author Truman Capote was originally hired as the screenwriter for the 1974 film adaptation. In his screenplay, Nick Carraway and Jordan Baker were both written to be homosexual. After Capote was removed from the project, Coppola rewrote the screenplay."

Unko...we are not the only one thinking Nick is SO GAY for Gatsby!!!!:D.....
dammit...why do they remove Capote...WHY!!!....this movie had the potential to win OSCAR!!!

okay....I got interested in this thing...searched google....and saw this:

During a get-together in New York, Nick meets Mr. McKee, a photographer: "Mr. McKee was a pale, feminine man from the flat below. He had just shaved, for there was a white spot of lather on his cheekbone (30)." Afterwards McKee takes Nick to his home where they spend the night. Nick later remembers: "I was standing beside his bed and he was sitting up between the sheets, clad in his underwear."

OKIE!!!when did THAT happen? I think I totally missed it....in the book...MUST RE-READ!!

Mr. McKee was asleep on a chair with his fists clenched in his lap, like a photograph of a man of action. Taking out my handkerchief I wiped from his cheek the remains of the spot of dried lather that had worried me all the afternoon." (p.36)

WOW...I remember this part....WOWWWWW!!!!!!!....I never thought of it....THAT way...I was so innocent last year...!!

lol....I am being carried away...K!...what I really wanted to say is..."Daisy...I freaking hate you even more now...!!!"

---------------------------------------------------------

NOW...Godfather...GODFATHER!!!!...

Those of you who havent watched it yet....YOU MUST WATCH IT RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is SO FUCKING GOOD!!!....manly tears were shed man.....MANLY TEARS!!!!!

T w T I love the old man Don Vito Corleone!!!!!...and his son...(of course) Michael!!!..<3

----SPOILERS AHEAD!!!...DO NOT READ!!!...DONT YOU DARE READ IT WIITHOUT WATCHING THE FILM FIRST---

asdfghjkl;'

The moment I saw Vito Corleone playing with the kitty I KNOW HE IS A GOOD MAN!!!!!!!!!!!....

T_______T I cried blood when I saw him got shot.....BAWWWW....I couldnt believe it....I THOUGHT he is the main character!!!!......when Michael came to the hospital and told him "I will protect you.:.....the old man smiled and I CRIED (internally...cuz my parents are with me...) again....It was SUCH a cute scene BAWWWWWWWW..........the way he died in the end reminded me of my own grandpa....he died of heart-attack while playing with my cousin too....T____T....dude Don Vito Corleone is probably the most likeable old man I've ever seen in a movie.........T____T I want a grandpa like that....I am serious...

the best part is Michael!!!!....I dont know why....Al Pacino is not the prettiest man alive but I THINK HE IS SO FREAKING SEXY IN THE MOVIE!!!!!!!.......even my dad agreed he is sexy!!!!.....T___T....I am attracted to smart men who are ruthless to ppl who deserve to die...you know what I mean?....when those bastards got killed....god....I have never been that happy in my life!!!

Crime/War movies are the best afterall...T V T

ahhhh...I cant find the words to describe the awesomeness of the movie.....I will leave the task to Junko and Unko....Grazie~ = w =

godfather_l.jpg

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...SOOOOOOO FUCKING BAD-ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE HIM!!!!!!!!!....My second on-screen crush after Johnny Depp in Pirates!!!!!!!!!!

>////////////////<

I am in LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...................

Is it wrong to hope that stuff/shows/char you liek....never get TOO famous/popular?

D : now I am having this problemo again....

APH needs to get un-popular ASAP....you know something is wrong when you see APH's fan arts showing up on the popular section of DA....alongside NARUTARD fan arts....

asdfghjkl;'

It is Ouran ALL OVER AGAIN....I see APH FREAKING EVERYWHERE I GO!!!!....even on the stupid torrent downloading software!!!!.....all we need now is for all the OSOS ppl to watch it....

Death Note, Code Geass, Haruhi, Gurren Lagann, Lucky Star, Ouran....now APH....

D: D: D: D:.....I bet everyone is gonna cosplay as the characters from those titles above in AX....(well...and also the Naruto group, the Bleach group. the FMA group, the D Gray man group, and the Reborn group......)

not that I hate those shows....I LOVE most of them...but....................................

not when fangirls/boys start screaming...."OMG...XXX IS SO HOT/MOE!!!"
I just want to punch directly on their ignorant faces.....

=___= okay maybe I am over-reacting....blame the irritating California summer heat!!

Higashi no Eden...DONE!

First of all, I want to congratulate myself for having finished 1 show out of 6 shows that I started for this season.....

this totally explains my amazingly long "drop list"....

anyways....the ending...the ending...

the first half....WOW...wait...what happened?.....=___= so confused
the second half was quiet GOOD.... I really like the part where it connects with the ED animation......but I am still confused.....in a good way...I guess...

so now we are left with a HUGE cliffhanger....thank goodness I am not very concerned with any of the characters so I dont feel like banging my head on the table or cursing Production I.G....

wait...now we have 2 movies planned?.....yay!.....I guess there is something to look forward to...?

I gave this show an 8/10.....might drop to a 7 later.....but for now it is an 8 because I am really impressed by this episode....

-------------unrelated to the topic---------------

SO BORED SO BORED SO BORED.....

>____> I tried to read some manga yesterday...."Kimi no Todoke" is supposed to be good right?....how come I am so not amused?....what happened.....where did my shoujo heart go?.....then I saw BL is reading "Bukiyou na Silent" so I decided to give that a try......all I want to say is...yeah....BL is REALLY a fujoshi...there is no doubt about it now....lol.....

<____< I want to read something DIFFERENT......

GAHH...fuck this shit.

f-off-small.jpg

this essay is seriously pissing me off.....I am gonna turn yandere in any given moment....

it is hard to remain unbiased nowadays....= = even the newspaper articles aint reliable...

I just feel like writing a new entry....

I need to finish my essay
I need to finish my essay
I need to finish my essay

Finishing my essay = I can do whatever the eff I want to do...:D (according to my dad...at least...

the past two days were quiet eventful....

We ate...A LOT....god we spent most of the time making food+eating...lol.....I felt as if I have gained 10 pounds....

I found out all of my friends are good housewives....especially Junko and Tammy....D:....I am ashamed...man....cant even wash dishes right....

I think the only solution to my disability is to either buy/kidnap a man slave with Ashley....or hire a chef when I get rich......

The horror movies we watched...The Omen and The Exorcist are not as scary as I thought....The Omen made me lol.....everything looks so fake....probably the first time that I thought evil little children are not creepy.....The Exorcist...I am more concerned that it is filmed in Georgetown than anything else....actually....=___,= guess I will have a lot of sites to explore when I get there!.....other than that.....I also found out that Chinko is a very unpleasant child between 2-9 am....dont irritate her during those hours man!....I think I am more scared of her than the ghosts in those movies.....

Wii killed me.....my arms+back dont belong to me anymore today when I woke up (after 15 hours of sleeping....||||) .....but I still want to play Zelda.....must fly with them chickens!!!

Lastly....Crepes are GOOD...:D :D :D

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT

LAKERS!!!!....LAKERSSS CHAMPS BABY!!!!!!!

KOBE PLAYOFF MVP BABY!!!!!!!!.....

what I really want to say:

am I the only one thinking that Kobe and Gasol will make a good yaoi pairing?!!!

Three, Two, One...FUCK!

OKAY...GREAT!!!

BOTH KOUGA AND MORIKAWA ARE GONNA BE AT AX ON DAY ONE....

dude....you three who are reading my blog....I am going there on Day 1 man....those two guests are like the main reason I am going this year...there is no other way around.....

I will either buy a four day ticket.......or a two day one...depending on what you guys wanna do~.....

Cristy...mind if I stay at your house on July 2nd?....

=___=.....Summer Break started.....is it normal to be THIS bored?

I think I need to finish this stupid NEET essay ASAP....hopefully today...><
my parents have been bugging me about this crap for a MONTH already...REALLY need to get it out of the way....

Other than that duty....I am terribly BORED....

I know this is not the first time I complain about this...but seriously....anime has been so boring recently.....

I am only watching like ONE show out of this spring season.....and that is Higashi no Eden...ummm...that show is ALRIGHT.....I mean it has good plot, art and music etc....but it is just not THAT great as many ppl on MAL acclaim it to be......definitely NOT the best show of the year....I enjoyed Toradora! and Clannad AS WAYYYY better than this show.....I dunno....I just dont care about any of the characters.....the pace is too slow for my taste.....(but then again....most ppl hate how fast-paced R2 is....) dude...it is freaking ONE episode before the finale....and I just got the feeling...."OHHH...something is FINALLY happening...." OH WELL.....Higashi no Eden did exceed my expectation in the first ep....but it doesnt really match up with the hype later on......= = in conclusion....I am DISAPPOINTED...

I am really...REALLY behind on FMA Brocest.....at this point I really dont know if I will catch up....or not.....

Lets see...what else i want to complain about....OH!....APH.....>____> YEAH...the anime fails...period.

Currently....I dont want to watch any anime even tho I have like 11 shows on my hard-drive I need to finish.......this summer I want to do something more productive......

1. draw.....I plan to bring my tablet with me to China....and work on drawing more manly looking men.....=     = no more moe moe ukes.....Amber.....!!!......oh and I want to draw a portrait of my grandma...:D

2. read.....I already have 4 books in mind....any recommandations?....I am scared of going to college English classes....just to realize how much I fail at writing....I heard they write 10-30 pages essays....O___o....you gotta be kidding me......

3. watch movies.....-   - I seriously need to become a part of the American culture.....since I am going to an anime-unfriendly school......

4. learn how to cook....VERY important....hopefully my grandma will teach me some Chinese dishes....:D

5. get my freaking driver's license....if I dont my parents will murder me....literally....

6. ....? what else should I do before going to college??.....any ideas?


-------------------switches to emo mood---------------------

I hate myself....everything I do is a mistake.....=   = never let me decide on anything

Just finished watching Detroit Metal City....

There is only one word I can describe this show:

FUCK!

GREAT....did NOTHING today again...>___>

woke up...went to tutoring....went to the mall with friend and bought something that my parents think are ugly so I have to return later...went to dinner....got scolded on the way back......tried to do my essay but ended up ranting on my blog instead......then talked with friends and watched the encore of SH's Moira....>___>

I just want to say one thing.......

SOUND HORIZON I LOVE YOUUUUU!!!!.....

WHO ELSE HAS A FREAKING NATIONAL ANTHEMN FOR THE FANS TO SING BY THE END OF THE CONCERT??!!!!........that is the most ass-kicking thing EVARRRR......

I want to be a resident of Sound Horizon Kingdom too...T____T....

must re-watch this concert again.....and AGAIN....and AGAINNNNN.....

oh and buy doujins....and CDs...and DVDs.....GAHHHHHH!!!!!

P.S.....REVO DENKA IS SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.......<33333333....*fangirling*

hmmm...time to be emo again....

I fucking hate writing essays when I dont feel like it.....

just like how i hate drawing stuff when I dont feel like doing so.....

=_____=.....you know....there are times when you cant draw anything right and you just want to do something else?....

this is that kind of time....

I DO NOT WANT TO REVISE THAT FUCKING TIBET ESSAY.....

it is not even revising....IT IS REWRITING!!!!

Im not gonna listen to my dad again.....ALL BULL SHIT!!....last time I told him about my idea on the college essay....he said it doesnt have a theme and crap...I ignored him and wrote what I wanted anyways,,,,and it turned out well....everyone liked it....this time...I listened to him and wrote that junk on the Tibet issue.......everyone hated it....even MYSELF

I kept asking him...do you think this is too aggressive?....and he said...oh it is fine the professors are not supposed to be biased.....ALL BULL CRAP!!!!!......

who wants to listen to pro-china shit in a conservative place filled with old farts?.....

GAHHH....I should have just went with the current....and wrote pro-tibet things so I will get admitted......

I cant think of ANYTHING to support what I wrote (because I cant trust either Western or Chinese sources).....but I also cant bring myself to blame everything on China......at times I just wanted to scratch out the whole thing and write about saving pandas instead......

Every freaking day....my parents are like "did you revise yet did you revise yet did you revise yet did you revise yet?"

if I said no....then...

"YOU ARE SO LAZY YOU ARE SLACKING OFF IF YOU CANT TRANSFER THEN YOU ARE SCREWED THEN YOU MADE THE WRONG CHOICE THEN....."

let me complete your sentence....then you will be embarrassed because you already told ALL of your friends that I am majoring in politics @ you know where...

WHAT THE HELL.....I didnt even transfer yet.....WHAT THE HELL....does my majoring in the best program in the college THAT IMPORTANT???....is majoring in a lesser known major...THAT HUMILIATING TO YOU.....that you have to tell all of your friends that I am already in that major.....now EVERY ONE comes up to me and be like "oh hook me up when you work for Obama!!!"

thanx for the pressure....dad/mom.

=_______,= just watch me major in becoming a trashcan picker/janitor.......

I FREAKING HATE it when my parents talk about me in front of other ppl....I dont care if they say nice things or not...I just hate to hear it.....why do parents always like to brag about their children in front of their friends??......I think it is humiliating....because you know what they say are nowhere close to who you really are......and other ppl will think TOO highly of you when you really are not that great.....

also....I really hate how ppl I dont know say overly nice things to me...like "you are pretty." "you are SO smart." "you are SO talented at art."....seriously...shut the hell up....you dont even know me......stop trying to be nice to me so you will feel like you are a nice person......because it only hurts me more....I know those are just flatterings....and I dont buy that.....haha....if I am a teacher....I will probably hate teacher's pets......

I think that is the problem I have with people in general....I dont want to hear nice things from them when they dont even mean it...I like people who are honest....people who will tell you what they REALLY think of you......Monsieur Dhennin told us that true friends are those who will tell you hurtful things....(maybe thats why he is always so mean to us lol) those words might hurt in the beginning....but you really reflect on them and try to change yourself for the better......

when ppl start to tell you..."you know....you are okay looking.....you get good grades because you worked hard for them.......and you draw pretty well but you still have a lot of room for improvement...." then THAT is when you know....OMEDETOU!!!...you have made a REAL friend!!

maybe that is why I have so little friends.....................................

ppl...start being mean to me from now on....please!

HEYYYY...

HEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!

HEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

while writing this entry I just came up with a more interesting/awesome idea....:D :D :D :D :D :D :D

Okay it is decided now....

I am going to write about NEET!!!!!!:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

Thanku Journal/Blog/YummyPoo...I LOVE YOU!! You are the BEST!!!

YO....Cristy....Otanjoubi Omedetou!!!!!

YOU ARE AN OLD FART NOW JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE....CONGRATS!!!!

Anyways....Happy Birthday!.....

I have a lot to say to you but I will save it for later.....><.....

OH SHI-!!!!!!.....YESHHH+1

Kouga Yun is also coming to AX this yearrrr....

She is the mangaka for Loveless....and also the character designer for Gundam 00.....at any rate....my artbook of Loveless is gonna get signed FUCH YESHHHH!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAA......

P.S. I find it kinda unfair that this year is ALL about Gundam 00....>___> the director...artist...and whatnot....I dont think last year was Code Geass centered......= = GAHHHH.....whatever....I still have hope.....................

OH RLY?

Darker than Black just announced that it will have a second season........................

dude....so PREDICTABLE....

everything is having a new season......Haruhi...Shana...DTB.....whatever....= =

WELL....since my fav. male character died in DTB (no surprise here....) I will just watch it for the loli.....

HOLY SHIT....I thought I was gonna die.....

so I was doing my hw....

suddenly I saw something flashing in my room....(for a second I thought its paranormal activity...||||

couple seconds later....

I heard thunder roaring.....FOR 20 FREAKING SECONDS.....

and my house was shaking......it felt like an earthquake.....but the SOUND it made....I almost thought we had a volcanic explosion....(actually....I went to the window and checked if there's anything happening on the mountains....<--that was stupid ||||

I was never scared of thunder before....I just thought it is annoying because it disrupts my sleep.....but this one just scared the crap out of me.....

okay now I am scared to go to sleep...I dont want to die.....

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG....OMGGGGGG!!!!

asdfghhjkl;'....

HOLY SHIAAAAAATTTT!!!!!!

OH MAI GOD!!!!

AHHHHHH...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

YESHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

YESSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Toshiyuki Morikawa (森川智之) is going to AX.....

RAI'S SEIYUUUUUUUU (also Sephiroth's too.......!!!!!!

GAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....SO AWESOMMEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am SOOOOOO HAPPYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!

T V T MUST GET SIGNATUREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE......

now I just want to see Jun Fukuyama then I can die in peace.....