Oh screw you....
-___-
yesterday I waited til 3 fecking am in the morning....for their "SUPER SHOCKING NEWS"...
stalked their blog for the WHOLE NIGHT....refreshing like a madman.....
then it turned out to be an event/party that I cannot attend....
because it is in fecking AREA 11
I think you should know what I am referring to at this point already....there is nothing else in this world that will make me this mad......
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but ANYWAYS...
yesterday/today is a day...that marked my life....
SEPTEMBER 28th in Japan.....is the day it ended....
the day that I experienced the most pain in my life....
the day that I thought everything is over...and lost every incentive to move on....
IT WAS THE DAY THAT I PARTED WITH MY BELOVED ルルシュ
a year has passed...but my burning love has never ceased for a moment....
愛してるよ、ルルシュ様、永遠に。
It is love for a friend....of course....
=___= or not.....I dunno. 恋ですか？>///////<
I am a hopeless case....OTL.....
I will develop necrophilia VERY SOON.....
At any rate....it feels really unreal that CG has ended for a whole year already....has it really been that long?....yesterday sure felt like a day when I stayed up late to watch the raws...
AHHHHHH...I should have drawn something to remember this day....but then again when it ended last year I didnt draw anything either (too busy crying and beating the other fans/trollers up...of course)
I hope NT November issue wont dissapoint the REAL fans further...lets cross our fingers!! Q ^ Q
yesterday I waited til 3 fecking am in the morning....for their "SUPER SHOCKING NEWS"...
stalked their blog for the WHOLE NIGHT....refreshing like a madman.....
then it turned out to be an event/party that I cannot attend....
because it is in fecking AREA 11
I think you should know what I am referring to at this point already....there is nothing else in this world that will make me this mad......
---------------------------------
but ANYWAYS...
yesterday/today is a day...that marked my life....
SEPTEMBER 28th in Japan.....is the day it ended....
the day that I experienced the most pain in my life....
the day that I thought everything is over...and lost every incentive to move on....
IT WAS THE DAY THAT I PARTED WITH MY BELOVED ルルシュ
a year has passed...but my burning love has never ceased for a moment....
愛してるよ、ルルシュ様、永遠に。
It is love for a friend....of course....
=___= or not.....I dunno. 恋ですか？>///////<
I am a hopeless case....OTL.....
I will develop necrophilia VERY SOON.....
At any rate....it feels really unreal that CG has ended for a whole year already....has it really been that long?....yesterday sure felt like a day when I stayed up late to watch the raws...
AHHHHHH...I should have drawn something to remember this day....but then again when it ended last year I didnt draw anything either (too busy crying and beating the other fans/trollers up...of course)
I hope NT November issue wont dissapoint the REAL fans further...lets cross our fingers!! Q ^ Q
Shiawase Neiro
最后的picture drama...一个永远也不会实现的合照....大家都开心的笑了....这就是Lulu心底最渴望的“小小的幸福”吧？
A little piece of happiness...
看到这张图....眼泪就自己掉下来了...其实....这也是自己内心深处最希望看到的结局....虽然想尊重他的选择....但是还是想让他能够好好的活着....和大家一起过着平淡快乐的生活....（做父母的，就会是这种感觉吧？）...可是我也知道.....就算Lulu还活着....他也不会有机会过这样平静的日子了.....
而自己能做的....就只有在远处望着他.....替他祈祷....祝福他......愿他能够在另一个我碰触不到的地方....得到幸福....
现在....Lulu是不是在做着同样的一个梦呢？
快乐的碎片....也想送给你....
I'll try collecting the shards of happiness I once had gathered in my chest
At my very core, where a melody I'd started to forget plays, without having faded
I'm in the middle of hunting down the manga I lent out, and sometimes I find a faded anthology
If I say so myself, I made a pretty stupid laugh when I went, "I shall seize the world"
In those days when I seized not the world, but a train strap
I smiled and bowed my head to the me of back then, and said, "Sorry about that"
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart
The reason I'm here now is because of everybody
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart
Next time, I'll send everyone happiness
I won't forget anything, because who I was that day is still me
You mustn't always tell someone you love them, right?
If it hurts, it's okay to run away, as long as you return here again
Let's drop in on various people along the way, through our original days
How long have you been face-down in the dead center of the unstopping town?
The "feelings" you hold are too great, and so you're puncturing them all by yourself
So listen to my words for your own sake--you, who gave me happiness
I'll send you power day by day
I'll try connecting the shards of happiness that are about to overflow from my chest
The melody that's grown reassuring is a message that's been put on repeat
On a long night where I'm about to spill tears, I abruptly look over my shoulder
So that I won't forget that day when I followed your footprints
I am such a bad person...
so I was rewatching episode 19 yesterday....
I remember I hated this episode SO MUCH the first time I watched it...so did everyone else....ppl were bitching how it is a Gundam Seed rip-off....and I think Suzaku x Kallen fandom started to emerge because of that episode too.....(OH GAWD...I hated that pairing...but now I hate Gino x Kallen more lol)
I used to hate Euphie....like A LOT.....I felt bad when you know what happened....but I was kind of happy to see Suzaku suffer.....oh yeah....I used to hate Suzaku x Euphie too...LOL....so much hate....
but now....I like Euphie A LOT MORE than the Euphie wannabe Nunnally.....when I watch it again after everything that happened....I discovered that I really like this pairing....Lelouch x Euphemia....T___T what a cute/sad couple....they liked each other when they were little too.....gahhh....why do all those things have to happen!? they are probably the two most tragic characters in CG.....T______T
yep....Lulu x Euphie is the ONLY incest pairing that I approve of....(besides Schneizel x Lulu...but thats yaoi)
I am still deciding who is the seme here.....I mean.....Lulu fails (in a cute way)......so I guess even tho Euphie is like the most innocent person existed in human history....she can still be the seme.....yeah...my theory is that no matter who the other person is....Lulu is always the uke nyahahahahahaha.....(even Rolo!....okay I am getting even more disgusting now)
= = I have such a sick mind.....I am scared of my true self....|||||||
This never gets old....
I have like a million shows on my hard-drive but I have no incentive to watch them at all.....
I have a bunch of games on every game console too but I am too lazy to play them....
sadly I also have loads of homework to do but I don't feel like starting....
SO...I went on Crunchyroll to see whats new and guess what? they have all of Code Geass' first season on there now.....suddenly I feel the urge to rewatch the first episode for the 1000000th time....LOL....
My eyes were filled with tears....T____T....
Code Geass is the best after all.....AHHHHHHHHH.....no matter how many times I re-watch it...it NEVER gets old......I always manage to find something new in there that I never noticed before.....I can literally memorize every line in that episode now.....everything is just so perfect....the BGM....the cast....the animation.....AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!....its also very refreshing to see the big-eyed Lulu again.....dude...Junjun's voice in the beginning sounds so innocent!!....it makes me sad to see how things have changed since then.....Lulu, C.C., and Suzaku met in the first stage....and they left each other in the last turn......SOOOO DEPRESSING....
FUCCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....
I finally FINALLY have the courage to rewatch the last episode again after more than half a year.....
CODE GEASS R2 ENDING SPOILERS!!!....dont you dare to read it if you havent watched it yet....
I thought I am prepared for this.......but......I almost had a heart attack for crying too hard....
LULU...LULU....LULU...LULU!!!!!
My hands are still shaking....I can barely type now....
I am able to hold in my tears until you know what happened....but when he says "I want to destroy this world, and recreate it"......hearing his voice fading away.....I just cant hold it anymore....it is too painful for me......and I cried at the exact same moment Nunnally started bawling.......FUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!THE BGM KILLS!!!!!!!!!!
when I re-watched the two episodes....I was constantly asking myself...WHY IS IT STILL SO EFFING EXCITING AFTER ALL THE TIMES I RE-WATCHED THEM? while most of the shows today are boring as hell....and I dont even feel like watching them at all......dont even bother about discussion or speculation.....
When I think about it now...during 2006-2008....Code Geass is like the only show I watched....not because I dont have time to watch other shows....it is just that CG alone is enough to occupy my mind throughout the entire week.....(or months...) there's ALWAYS things to discuss....good or bad.....the discussion thread on popgo each week usually goes up to 100 pages or more.....I raged, I laughed, I cursed, I cried....there are numerous times when I wanted to kill the characters,the director, the animator, Ali Project, or even the fans themselves....Code Geass is a journey....I grew up with Lelouch....Code Geass has murdered me, and gave me another life with a new reason to live.
Lulu's ending has left a scar on my heart forever....my heart aches by just thinking about him.....no matter how many times I re-watch the show....I still cant forgive the majority of the characters....they seriously don't deserve what is given to them.....at this point...I hardly care what other ppl say about R2 as a whole anymore......all I know is I love that show...and what other ppl think will not change that fact......HOWEVER....I realized that there is an exception...and that is Lelouch....and him alone....no one shall defame him in front of my face.....NO ONE!!!...I DONT CARE WHAT THE HELL YOU HAVE TO SAY!!!!if you have a problem with Lulu.....FIGHT WITH ME.....and SHUT UP......or I will REAP YOUR FAMILY....I shall become Lulu's knight and protect his fame (and virginity)!!!!!!
haaa....I am recovered now......I like how the longest entries I write are always about CG/Lulu....haha.....
never mind...my heart still feels weird....I can hear my heart pounding....-___-.....CG might result in my early death.....
I have a bunch of games on every game console too but I am too lazy to play them....
sadly I also have loads of homework to do but I don't feel like starting....
SO...I went on Crunchyroll to see whats new and guess what? they have all of Code Geass' first season on there now.....suddenly I feel the urge to rewatch the first episode for the 1000000th time....LOL....
My eyes were filled with tears....T____T....
Code Geass is the best after all.....AHHHHHHHHH.....no matter how many times I re-watch it...it NEVER gets old......I always manage to find something new in there that I never noticed before.....I can literally memorize every line in that episode now.....everything is just so perfect....the BGM....the cast....the animation.....AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!....its also very refreshing to see the big-eyed Lulu again.....dude...Junjun's voice in the beginning sounds so innocent!!....it makes me sad to see how things have changed since then.....Lulu, C.C., and Suzaku met in the first stage....and they left each other in the last turn......SOOOO DEPRESSING....
FUCCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....
I finally FINALLY have the courage to rewatch the last episode again after more than half a year.....
CODE GEASS R2 ENDING SPOILERS!!!....dont you dare to read it if you havent watched it yet....
I thought I am prepared for this.......but......I almost had a heart attack for crying too hard....
LULU...LULU....LULU...LULU!!!!!
My hands are still shaking....I can barely type now....
I am able to hold in my tears until you know what happened....but when he says "I want to destroy this world, and recreate it"......hearing his voice fading away.....I just cant hold it anymore....it is too painful for me......and I cried at the exact same moment Nunnally started bawling.......FUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!THE BGM KILLS!!!!!!!!!!
when I re-watched the two episodes....I was constantly asking myself...WHY IS IT STILL SO EFFING EXCITING AFTER ALL THE TIMES I RE-WATCHED THEM? while most of the shows today are boring as hell....and I dont even feel like watching them at all......dont even bother about discussion or speculation.....
When I think about it now...during 2006-2008....Code Geass is like the only show I watched....not because I dont have time to watch other shows....it is just that CG alone is enough to occupy my mind throughout the entire week.....(or months...) there's ALWAYS things to discuss....good or bad.....the discussion thread on popgo each week usually goes up to 100 pages or more.....I raged, I laughed, I cursed, I cried....there are numerous times when I wanted to kill the characters,the director, the animator, Ali Project, or even the fans themselves....Code Geass is a journey....I grew up with Lelouch....Code Geass has murdered me, and gave me another life with a new reason to live.
Lulu's ending has left a scar on my heart forever....my heart aches by just thinking about him.....no matter how many times I re-watch the show....I still cant forgive the majority of the characters....they seriously don't deserve what is given to them.....at this point...I hardly care what other ppl say about R2 as a whole anymore......all I know is I love that show...and what other ppl think will not change that fact......HOWEVER....I realized that there is an exception...and that is Lelouch....and him alone....no one shall defame him in front of my face.....NO ONE!!!...I DONT CARE WHAT THE HELL YOU HAVE TO SAY!!!!if you have a problem with Lulu.....FIGHT WITH ME.....and SHUT UP......or I will REAP YOUR FAMILY....I shall become Lulu's knight and protect his fame (and virginity)!!!!!!
haaa....I am recovered now......I like how the longest entries I write are always about CG/Lulu....haha.....
never mind...my heart still feels weird....I can hear my heart pounding....-___-.....CG might result in my early death.....
I want this SOOOO BAADDDDDD....
the limited edition of R2's last volume set.....
CLAMP...I worship thy!!!!!......
SOOOOO FREAKING GORGEOUS...!!!!....It is better than the 250 dollars CluClu drawing by Kimura IMO.....CLAMP did a really good job this time.....Lulu actually looks like him lol....I also like how Nunnally is a box away from Lulu nyahahahaha....GJ..Rolo......ohhh....I think it is kinda funny how Lulu looks like such a seme in the picture....when in reality C.C. would be the seme haha.....but yeah....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH......I HAVE TO GET THIS..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I didnt get the chance to pre-order the limited edition for S1....but this time I AM NOT GOING TO MISS THE CHANCE AGAIN!!!!
Anyone knows where I can pre-order this set other than Amazon,jp??....I really dont want to spend 40 dollars on shipping.....but if that is the only way....then I will beg my parents.....
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...........I WAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNTTTTTTTTTTTTTT THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!
