Just cried my eyeballs out...
I watched a Japanese movie called "Koizora"....
Mainly because I want to see Miura Haruma...ahahaaa....
This movie is famous....so I also wanted to check out how good it is....
Well...it sure leaves me the impression of a typical Korean drama....only this time the person that got cancer is not the girl LOL.....
everything was so predictable....to the point that I could even tell when the cell phone is gonna ring....
BUT...
WHY THE HELL DID I CRY MY EYEBALLS OUT AND USED A BOX OF TISSUE?!!!
I dont undesrstand myself haha....
"Kimi wa shiawase deshitaka."
"todemo shiawase deshitasu."
I felt so happy that I understood this part ahahahaaa....I didn't learn the painful grammar for nothing~
but yeah...back on topic....
BAWWWWWWWWWW Haruma why are you so a cutie...; A ; (.....)
I bawled so hard when he cried and said "I don't want to die"
guess what....I DONT WANT TO DIE EITHER!!!!....*gets shot*
O___o this movie is alright haha....nothing extraordinary.....a typical tragic love drama that you can probably tell from the beginning...>___>....
DEMO.....
Hiro....; A ; ahhh....poor kid....didn't even get to show up for half of the movie....
....Haruma is....so much cuter in black hair....I cried blood when he dyed his hair back to blond again....
AINT HE PRETTY!!...
I am so happy to see black hair in Jpop stars again...<3 it looks really good please dont dye it again....
when I saw the last photo....
wow...
Haruma is perfect for Youji....SO PERFECT....
= 3 = sexy uke <3
Miura Haruma is the same age as me too!!...wow I feel old LOL...AT LEAST I am not older than him ahahaaa....
Mainly because I want to see Miura Haruma...ahahaaa....
This movie is famous....so I also wanted to check out how good it is....
Well...it sure leaves me the impression of a typical Korean drama....only this time the person that got cancer is not the girl LOL.....
everything was so predictable....to the point that I could even tell when the cell phone is gonna ring....
BUT...
WHY THE HELL DID I CRY MY EYEBALLS OUT AND USED A BOX OF TISSUE?!!!
I dont undesrstand myself haha....
"Kimi wa shiawase deshitaka."
"todemo shiawase de
I felt so happy that I understood this part ahahahaaa....I didn't learn the painful grammar for nothing~
but yeah...back on topic....
BAWWWWWWWWWW Haruma why are you so a cutie...; A ; (.....)
I bawled so hard when he cried and said "I don't want to die"
guess what....I DONT WANT TO DIE EITHER!!!!....*gets shot*
O___o this movie is alright haha....nothing extraordinary.....a typical tragic love drama that you can probably tell from the beginning...>___>....
DEMO.....
Hiro....; A ; ahhh....poor kid....didn't even get to show up for half of the movie....
....Haruma is....so much cuter in black hair....I cried blood when he dyed his hair back to blond again....
AINT HE PRETTY!!...
I am so happy to see black hair in Jpop stars again...<3 it looks really good please dont dye it again....
when I saw the last photo....
wow...
Haruma is perfect for Youji....SO PERFECT....
= 3 = sexy uke <3
Miura Haruma is the same age as me too!!...wow I feel old LOL...AT LEAST I am not older than him ahahaaa....
A revelation dream....
wow this dream is really depressing....but realistic....it reflects what I am thinking....and foretells what I should do....
I dreamt that my parents came to visit me while I was doing my ever-so-painful accounting homework.....we hopped onto a bus and traveled to Rhode Island...
There....I saw a magnificent school that is built like a castle from Anderson's fairy tales...it was beautiful....dreamlike....I almost cried when I saw the architecture.....
That school is the famous "Rhode Island School of Design (RISD)"
I was ecstatic...I always wanted to visit it....and now it is right before me....
I jumped off the bus....ran into the building.....the inside is like a church...the atmosphere feels divine....yet there are structures that are clearly modern and eccentric like an art school.....everyone is Asian there (LMAO....totally tells how much I need Asianness)....there are even some people wearing uniforms (.....).....people there are smiling...laughing....enjoying their lives.....I knew by that instant this is where I always wanted to be.....
then we left....I was going to tell my dad something.....but I couldn't move my lips.....I was afraid to tell him that I made the wrong decision again....that I am not going to follow the tracks laid before me.....that I am going to abandon everything I've accomplished so far...and to pursue something hazardous and arbitrary.....
then I woke up.....the first thing I did is to search RISD....and to see if it matches with the image I had in my mind....it didn't...(LOL)....it is built like every other east coast schools....but I proceeded to search the school further....
ahhh....it sounds like the...best school ever......I was moved by the thought that maybe I could do something to change my current situation....do things that I am actually good at...etc.
but part of me also want to do something different....I always want to learn something different.....to explore the possibilities of one's future....to take the weirdest class available....and those things are what an art school does not offer....
for example....RISD DOESNT FUCKING OFFER JAPANESE WTFFFFF
=___=
ugh...and the admission rate is fecking low for an Art school....30 percent YO....whereas Art Center has an acceptance rate of.........70 percent (WOWWWW....I didnt know it was...THAT...high...no wonder every sucky person gets in =____=...<--one of the main reasons I didn't want to apply)
I guess if one can get in RIDS then it means they really belong in the art industry.....
ahhh in the end I still want to go somewhere that offers BOTH a good art program AND a good liberal art program.....dude why didnt I just go to UCLA...lol....but they are cutting back classes and that aint a good sign for art major.....
Okay I am officially lost and I dunno what to do......o__O HELP?
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Apparently no one can help with my problems other than myself......LOL
over a night of researching and pondering....
I made a decision
Business is indeed very important....I shall not give up on it....
Art is also very important.....I shall not abandon it....
So the perfect combination would be a double major....but my damn fucking school doesnt allow double-major acrossing schools....=___=....only a minor is possible at this stage....
two large universities that offer strong liberal art programs and art programs:
Carnegie Mellon
Washington University in St. Louis.
The only problem is.....Carnegie Mellon's transfer rate is low as fuck...only 9 percent....worse than Stanford...pretty impossible to get in as a transfer....dammit....
WUSL....everything is good....the only problem is its....location....I dont think Missouri and I like each other very much....and I dunno how one can get a good art or business education at a place so isolated....||||||
O___= ;
my dear friends....I think I shall just stay at where I am....LOL.....I can live with a minor~(and two double majors...and another minor.....|||||)
I dreamt that my parents came to visit me while I was doing my ever-so-painful accounting homework.....we hopped onto a bus and traveled to Rhode Island...
There....I saw a magnificent school that is built like a castle from Anderson's fairy tales...it was beautiful....dreamlike....I almost cried when I saw the architecture.....
That school is the famous "Rhode Island School of Design (RISD)"
I was ecstatic...I always wanted to visit it....and now it is right before me....
I jumped off the bus....ran into the building.....the inside is like a church...the atmosphere feels divine....yet there are structures that are clearly modern and eccentric like an art school.....everyone is Asian there (LMAO....totally tells how much I need Asianness)....there are even some people wearing uniforms (.....).....people there are smiling...laughing....enjoying their lives.....I knew by that instant this is where I always wanted to be.....
then we left....I was going to tell my dad something.....but I couldn't move my lips.....I was afraid to tell him that I made the wrong decision again....that I am not going to follow the tracks laid before me.....that I am going to abandon everything I've accomplished so far...and to pursue something hazardous and arbitrary.....
then I woke up.....the first thing I did is to search RISD....and to see if it matches with the image I had in my mind....it didn't...(LOL)....it is built like every other east coast schools....but I proceeded to search the school further....
ahhh....it sounds like the...best school ever......I was moved by the thought that maybe I could do something to change my current situation....do things that I am actually good at...etc.
but part of me also want to do something different....I always want to learn something different.....to explore the possibilities of one's future....to take the weirdest class available....and those things are what an art school does not offer....
for example....RISD DOESNT FUCKING OFFER JAPANESE WTFFFFF
=___=
ugh...and the admission rate is fecking low for an Art school....30 percent YO....whereas Art Center has an acceptance rate of.........70 percent (WOWWWW....I didnt know it was...THAT...high...no wonder every sucky person gets in =____=...<--one of the main reasons I didn't want to apply)
I guess if one can get in RIDS then it means they really belong in the art industry.....
ahhh in the end I still want to go somewhere that offers BOTH a good art program AND a good liberal art program.....dude why didnt I just go to UCLA...lol....but they are cutting back classes and that aint a good sign for art major.....
Okay I am officially lost and I dunno what to do......o__O HELP?
----------------------------------------
Apparently no one can help with my problems other than myself......LOL
over a night of researching and pondering....
I made a decision
Business is indeed very important....I shall not give up on it....
Art is also very important.....I shall not abandon it....
So the perfect combination would be a double major....but my damn fucking school doesnt allow double-major acrossing schools....=___=....only a minor is possible at this stage....
two large universities that offer strong liberal art programs and art programs:
Carnegie Mellon
Washington University in St. Louis.
The only problem is.....Carnegie Mellon's transfer rate is low as fuck...only 9 percent....worse than Stanford...pretty impossible to get in as a transfer....dammit....
WUSL....everything is good....the only problem is its....location....I dont think Missouri and I like each other very much....and I dunno how one can get a good art or business education at a place so isolated....||||||
O___= ;
my dear friends....I think I shall just stay at where I am....LOL.....I can live with a minor~(and two double majors...and another minor.....|||||)
AHH Pre-registration.....
I had fun figuring out which classes I shall take next semester....
I made a decision that makes my life so much better.....
I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE MACRO NEXT SEMESTER....
aha ha ha....
I will deal with it laterrr....most business kids take their Econ classes in Sophomore year (the ONLY reason Im taking it now is because I wanted to transfer....but then I noticed Stern only wants Micro) Micro this semester has killed half of my college spirit....I need to take a break from Econ in general...
I have ZERO writing class this semester and I feel weird without an English class....
so I packed my next semester's schedule with tons of reading/writing-intensive classes....
here is what I registered for (the ones in parentheses are my alternatives):
-Apocalypse & Revolution /(Writing about Arts in DC)<<--fulfills my humanity & Writing requirement...."Russian Devils" class is not offered this year god dammit...=___=
-International Business
-Managerial Accounting
-History of Modern Japan / (International Relations)
-Intensive Japanese II
Overall...I have 18 credits
all of them fulfill one core requirement or another.....I am still avoiding Philosophy and Theology cores tho.....||||||
The only "fun" class next year is Japanese...again....|||||.....History of Modern Japan is an advanced class....I totally just skipped their freshmen history classes ( I couldnt take the one with the hot professor because of time conflict....BAWW....I will come back next year....).....but I hope it will be interesting.....I was going to take "Japanese Nationalism" before but it doesnt fulfill my history requirement.....taking this class also helps with my minor requirement too...yay!<3.....I hope I wont end up with "International Relations"....too many "international" classes in one semester....
I managed to avoid big lecture classes this time...most of my classes are around 25 ppl...:)
but the time schedule...fuck it is possible that I have BOTH morning classes AND evening classes....if I get REALLY unlucky I might end up with an evening classe for TWO AND HALF hours.....this is what you get for choosing a GOOD prof.......
but this time classes are more spread out....I have at least two classes everyday....instead of 4 classes on Mondays and Wednesdays...OTL
I am excited for next semester's class....><; looks like I will spend most of my time reading+writing+memorizing lol
I made a decision that makes my life so much better.....
I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE MACRO NEXT SEMESTER....
aha ha ha....
I will deal with it laterrr....most business kids take their Econ classes in Sophomore year (the ONLY reason Im taking it now is because I wanted to transfer....but then I noticed Stern only wants Micro) Micro this semester has killed half of my college spirit....I need to take a break from Econ in general...
I have ZERO writing class this semester and I feel weird without an English class....
so I packed my next semester's schedule with tons of reading/writing-intensive classes....
here is what I registered for (the ones in parentheses are my alternatives):
-Apocalypse & Revolution /(Writing about Arts in DC)<<--fulfills my humanity & Writing requirement...."Russian Devils" class is not offered this year god dammit...=___=
-International Business
-Managerial Accounting
-History of Modern Japan / (International Relations)
-Intensive Japanese II
Overall...I have 18 credits
all of them fulfill one core requirement or another.....I am still avoiding Philosophy and Theology cores tho.....||||||
The only "fun" class next year is Japanese...again....|||||.....History of Modern Japan is an advanced class....I totally just skipped their freshmen history classes ( I couldnt take the one with the hot professor because of time conflict....BAWW....I will come back next year....).....but I hope it will be interesting.....I was going to take "Japanese Nationalism" before but it doesnt fulfill my history requirement.....taking this class also helps with my minor requirement too...yay!<3.....I hope I wont end up with "International Relations"....too many "international" classes in one semester....
I managed to avoid big lecture classes this time...most of my classes are around 25 ppl...:)
but the time schedule...fuck it is possible that I have BOTH morning classes AND evening classes....if I get REALLY unlucky I might end up with an evening classe for TWO AND HALF hours.....this is what you get for choosing a GOOD prof.......
but this time classes are more spread out....I have at least two classes everyday....instead of 4 classes on Mondays and Wednesdays...OTL
I am excited for next semester's class....><; looks like I will spend most of my time reading+writing+memorizing lol
AHHHHHH
I lost the battle against my Accounting classmates/enemies this time....
RAWWRRRRRRR.....
so many ppl did better than me on this exam OTL....
MUST DEFEAT THEM NEXT TIME TO BE THE 15 PERCENT THAT GETS A'S..........
I feel so motivated right now....
I need to throw away my old *BAD* habit I developed in high school-->cramming...
from today on I will study everyday so I don't fall behind.....
I should study more on the weekdays because I want to have a life LOL....
Cant wait to go get some food.....so hungry....:/
RAWWRRRRRRR.....
so many ppl did better than me on this exam OTL....
MUST DEFEAT THEM NEXT TIME TO BE THE 15 PERCENT THAT GETS A'S..........
I feel so motivated right now....
I need to throw away my old *BAD* habit I developed in high school-->cramming...
from today on I will study everyday so I don't fall behind.....
I should study more on the weekdays because I want to have a life LOL....
Cant wait to go get some food.....so hungry....:/
oh my god SO FUCKING PISSED OFF
so I took my Econ exam today
Everything went fine until the last minutes when I realized that I did something wrong but I didnt have time to fix it....
then when I looked up the Professor was GONE....
I ran like a madman....and caught him RIGHT before he entered the elevator...
he got really mad and said this is ABSOLUTELY UNACCEPTABLE and he will take 5 points off from my exam....
I was like WTF....he only called time's off fucking ONCE.....and I didnt expect him to FLEE so quickly....I wasnt even working on the exam I was just fucking PACKING UP.....
do you know how important that FIVE points is?.....hella important when the exam is CURVED.....
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....I am SO PISSED.....
I WILL JUST PRETEND I MADE A MISTAKE ON THE EXAM I WILL JUST PRETEND I MADE A MISTAKE ON THE EXAM I WILL JUST PRETEND I MADE A MISTAKE ON THE EXAM....
but I also learned my lesson....COLLEGE IS NOT A JOKE......everything is SERIOUS......when the prof says turn in your test...TURN IT IN or get screwed over....
right now I am just thankful that I caught up with him on time and didnt get a zero on the midterm....
just lost all my appetite after that incident tho....=___= I shall not eat til dinner.....
I hope I did okay (to make up for the 5 points at least)....this exam is A LOT easier than the last one.....I hope the curve is not too high....
It's weird how I can never pull off an all-nighter...O__o I just have to get some sleep before the exam even if it's only an hour.....
tonight I need to start working on Psychology which I had been neglecting since the Accounting midterm last week....ahaha....three chapters behind...go me!!.....oh and I need to study for my Jp vocab test....=___,=
overall I am GLAD that fucking ECON midterm is over and i dont have to worry about it (much) until.....DECEMBER....woot..FINALLL
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so far.....the nicest prof this year is my Japanese sensei....; A ; she is such a sweet lady.....we can turn hw late if we forget or take tests late if we couldnt make it......she REALLY works with your schedule.....like today we decided to take the vocab test on friday instead of tomorrow because we have a lot of things due tmrw......her exams are reasonable and wont destroy you if you fail one......and she is probably the only teacher I have this year who understands the definition of "midterm"-->an exam you take during the MIDDLE of school year...ONCE......and her class is always fun....her drawings are cute....and I enjoy reading her comments on my doodles LOL......and what is more.....I REALLY learned A LOT in that class.....; U ; I shall take her class again next semester.....SATOU SENSEI IS AWESOME....
I like my accounting teacher too....she is helpful in e-mails when I couldnt go to her office hours.....and her TA is really good.....I am glad all of our accounting classes are standarized so no one can get easy A's....(because my prof is a hard teacher lol)
Psychology prof is interesting.....because half of the time I wasnt in her class.....I never really talked to her LOL......but her lectures are interesting....Psychology is just a generally interesting class once you get passed the nervous system and shit.....
Econ.....dude I learned nothing from the prof.....I learned EVERYTHING from myself, my friend, my txtbook, and my TA........the TA is definitely a better teacher than he is LOL......and he is MEAN after the class....I am intimidated by his change of attitude during and after classes...||||| I shall never visit him during office hours...||||||
Everything went fine until the last minutes when I realized that I did something wrong but I didnt have time to fix it....
then when I looked up the Professor was GONE....
I ran like a madman....and caught him RIGHT before he entered the elevator...
he got really mad and said this is ABSOLUTELY UNACCEPTABLE and he will take 5 points off from my exam....
I was like WTF....he only called time's off fucking ONCE.....and I didnt expect him to FLEE so quickly....I wasnt even working on the exam I was just fucking PACKING UP.....
do you know how important that FIVE points is?.....hella important when the exam is CURVED.....
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....I am SO PISSED.....
I WILL JUST PRETEND I MADE A MISTAKE ON THE EXAM I WILL JUST PRETEND I MADE A MISTAKE ON THE EXAM I WILL JUST PRETEND I MADE A MISTAKE ON THE EXAM....
but I also learned my lesson....COLLEGE IS NOT A JOKE......everything is SERIOUS......when the prof says turn in your test...TURN IT IN or get screwed over....
right now I am just thankful that I caught up with him on time and didnt get a zero on the midterm....
just lost all my appetite after that incident tho....=___= I shall not eat til dinner.....
I hope I did okay (to make up for the 5 points at least)....this exam is A LOT easier than the last one.....I hope the curve is not too high....
It's weird how I can never pull off an all-nighter...O__o I just have to get some sleep before the exam even if it's only an hour.....
tonight I need to start working on Psychology which I had been neglecting since the Accounting midterm last week....ahaha....three chapters behind...go me!!.....oh and I need to study for my Jp vocab test....=___,=
overall I am GLAD that fucking ECON midterm is over and i dont have to worry about it (much) until.....DECEMBER....woot..FINALLL
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so far.....the nicest prof this year is my Japanese sensei....; A ; she is such a sweet lady.....we can turn hw late if we forget or take tests late if we couldnt make it......she REALLY works with your schedule.....like today we decided to take the vocab test on friday instead of tomorrow because we have a lot of things due tmrw......her exams are reasonable and wont destroy you if you fail one......and she is probably the only teacher I have this year who understands the definition of "midterm"-->an exam you take during the MIDDLE of school year...ONCE......and her class is always fun....her drawings are cute....and I enjoy reading her comments on my doodles LOL......and what is more.....I REALLY learned A LOT in that class.....; U ; I shall take her class again next semester.....SATOU SENSEI IS AWESOME....
I like my accounting teacher too....she is helpful in e-mails when I couldnt go to her office hours.....and her TA is really good.....I am glad all of our accounting classes are standarized so no one can get easy A's....(because my prof is a hard teacher lol)
Psychology prof is interesting.....because half of the time I wasnt in her class.....I never really talked to her LOL......but her lectures are interesting....Psychology is just a generally interesting class once you get passed the nervous system and shit.....
Econ.....dude I learned nothing from the prof.....I learned EVERYTHING from myself, my friend, my txtbook, and my TA........the TA is definitely a better teacher than he is LOL......and he is MEAN after the class....I am intimidated by his change of attitude during and after classes...||||| I shall never visit him during office hours...||||||
